Some days I wake up with a strong sense of anxiety and a feeling that I’m supposed to be doing something more. On days like these, I question what I’m doing with my life. I feel the urge to start shooting off into a thousand different directions.
But lately I’ve been getting into the habit of taking a few minutes to connect with who I’ve been calling Mother Earth and my divine Father. I ask Spirit for advice. I allow myself to imagine myself as a vulnerable child, seeking validation and comfort from her parents.
This morning I asked Spirit, “What am I supposed to be doing with my life? What do I need to do next?” Spirit said back to me, “You’re already doing it. You’re healing, my love.”
I want to sprint ahead full-steam at whatever is next, but I see that Spirit is right. I have to continue to focus on my healing. And admittedly, in the last year alone, I have uncovered a mountain of self-limiting beliefs and traced them back to their origin.
With each limiting belief or narrative I uncover, the weight on my soul lessens. I become more comfortable in my own skin and less afraid of making mistakes all the time.
I visualized Mother Earth holding me and telling me that I am loved and I am enough. I could see in my mind’s eye my divine Father telling me it was okay to make mistakes. It felt so good to take those minutes amidst my anxiety to feel completely loved, supported, and validated.
Some people may consider me nutty for this practice, but I think our imaginations are powerful tools that can bring joy, peace, and love. I strongly believe that our perception of ourselves and the world around us is what creates the reality we experience.
If we can use our imagination or whatever mental tools available to us to reshape our perspective to create a healthier, more enjoyable reality, then why not do it? Who cares if people think it’s weird? Who cares if our inner critic tells us it’s silly?
I’ve also been thinking a lot about how we create many of our own obstacles and limitations. My friend and I started watching the documentary about Victoria’s Secret and I was struck by how people are able to do massive things without getting permission or having credentials.
Don’t get me wrong, this can be incredibly dangerous and have dramatic effects on society. But it highlighted for me the stark contrast for those of us that always think we have to color in the lines or that we have to be “qualified” for every job we apply for.
When we hold ourselves back, we maintain the status quo, keep the people who are in power where they are, and add limitations to ourselves. What might happen if we stopped worrying so much about needing to be respectable, qualified, or well-connected in order to pursue an idea?
Yesterday I found myself in downtown Sioux Falls at the 605 Made Night Market. As I was walking past the booths, a little girl caught my attention and said hello to me. I wasn’t particularly interested in purchasing any of the bath products they were selling, but I decided to let her walk me through their products.
After she finished telling me about the products, I asked if they made these themselves. While asking, I looked up at the adult woman standing in the back behind the little girl and a little boy.
At this moment the woman points at the two children and the little boy says, “Yup! We make everything here. I’m the CEO!” I was completely shocked. He looked like he was somewhere between 10-12 years old.
He went on to tell me about the inspiration for his company, offered me his business card, and answered my questions about his products. The little girl piped up that she was an employee. How could I not buy from these young entrepreneurs?!
Again, I was struck by the concept of how our own self-limiting beliefs hold us back from doing amazing and wonderful things in our lives. Look at this little boy, kicking ass and running his own company? The excuses start to fade when we see people take what they want, despite society telling them that they can’t.
It’s not that we are required to do giant, wonderful things to live a valid human experience. But when we discover that we can be ourselves without needing to keep the labels and boxes we have unconsciously put ourselves into, we are free to live a life of our own design.
I’m not sure what my life will look like six months from now, let alone six years from now, but I’m excited to chart my own course.
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